Phobia?

First off, I would like to write something with regards to the new found phobia that I realised I am infected with: The J-phobia.

And after today's exam paper, I realised that I have that fear instilled in me whenever the exam paper of this one particular lecturer appears in front of me.

Like always, we would have already anticipate the type of exam questions or format as we were told beforehand. The thing is, the while the usual paper have a maximum of three sub-question per question (the 3 sub-questions per question were applicable to certain questions only, not all) the paper today have 4 sub-question per question and it is applicable to ALL questions in the exam sheet.

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30 printed pages all together (o.o) with 5 questions in it (choose 4 questions). In total, there were 20 sub-questions and we were required to write on 16 of them.

Imagine the topic coverage of it *giddy*

It's the same lecturer that I've had for the previous subject I had last semester (a subject that I didn't do well, for the very first in my entire life). The format of the paper is therefore, the same as the previous subject.

So today, there I sat facing my fate in the freezing exam hall waiting for the clock to hit 2.00pm for the 10 minutes reading time. The moment I flip through the first two pages of the paper, I got this slight panic attack. Images about the previous semester subject, the lecturer, the questions, and results flashed through my mind within seconds.

And at that point of time, I just wanted to give up on everything and walk out of the hall. For good.

But no. Forced to breathe slowly and calm myself. Brainwashing myself with words like "You've got to do this. Die also must do. Just do it. You have 3 hours. Just calm down."

I had to remind myself that every 30 minutes because I my mood wasn't really there to do it right from the point when I faced the first question.

Sigh. Hope everything went well and will end up being well. Hope is all I have :'(

Anyhow, on with the good news. I'm officially on my semester break (!) which unfortunately only lasts for 4 days.

Four days though, will be faced with (1. Thursday) Dress and shoe shopping for #NAPBAS :D; (2. Friday) #NAPBAS and Food review); (3. Saturday) The possible Malacca trip. It became a possible now because Wan Li, the organiser just informed that there might be a change in plan. All my excitement :|; (4. Sunday) Last minute shopping preparation for my internship on Monday!

Yup, 4 days worth of holiday and yet, it doesn't look much of a resting-and-hibernating-break. But it's gonna be well used till Monday comes, the day where I start my job as a "cheap labour" haha! But I'm excited!  Hope my excitement will last for 3 months and not 3 hours. Tee hee!